Today was a bit better, but this afternoon was very difficult. If I'm going and doing, I'm okay. When I stop, I'm not. Maddie and Carter had dentist appointments this morning, then we went to lunch. My crazy phone isn't letting me send pics again, so maybe tomorrow. I had a hair appointment this afternoon, then picked up the kids. Carter and Maddie went to church this evening and Chloe, Greg and I stayed home. I sat at the table with Chloe as she was eating her dinner and just kept crying. She was trying her best to console me in her 3-year-old way, "Momma, you sad bout Maverick? It's okay... Why he die?" In a comment from a friend yesterday, she talked about how sometimes it feels like you're at a huge roadblock in your life, but everyone else just keeps going. You're stuck. I know that feeling.
Chloe and I finally ventured out to Walmart on Monday. We went around 12:30pm. It wasn't too busy, thankfully. I didn't notice very many babies there - I think it must have been naptime for many. I didn't hear anyone screaming at their kids either. She wanted to take her baby and her stroller into the store. I let her. She was much happier walking around pushing that stroller than she would've been if I had tried to make her sit in the cart. That's a good secret for a shopping trip with a three-year-old.
Well, I really don't have much else to say tonight. I'm feeling a little better this evening, so I don't want to get the water works flowing again. Love you all, jc
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